I am too focused on what people think.

I am too focused on if people are glaring at me.

I am too focused on if people are judging me.

It’s irritating me to be concerned about what people think of me, the consequence of not self remembering. I open the door one time and the bad habits come rushing in as if Moorish invaders storm through the gates to pillage the castle. As it turns out to be more work to close the door each time. People tell me it doesn’t have to be this way. Along side with self observation is self remembering they work hand in hand. I must keep my focus on the symbiont relationship.

I take a walk around my broken world to relieve the burdens off my troubled mind. Trudging through the rocky plains of time I exist in disbelief only outside of the secluded lines. Could it be that I am happier looking at the other side of the fence? Always looking to the future, or I am to focused on the actions I took in the past, the future always stays in the future as well as the past stays in the past. I am not too focused on the present in which I must be. When I am in fear I stand like a statue motionless and breathless. With the next moment I must be remembering the force so I don’t live in fear.

The sense of time I’ve never possessed. I have to keep remembering to focus on the moment. Remembering back I did have trouble staying in the moment, living in fear wasn’t much trouble though. I kick the door down as if I am El Cid the Moorish invader. To over throw anything or anyone who stands in my way is the Moorish champion’s quest.  My mortal enemy Fear is stationed in front of me. My conquest begins to pick off the fear one by one. The war will rage on for an infinite amount of time. I shall leave the past in the past, and not dwell so much on the projections of the future. The future hasn’t happened.

-Sid

Be sure to visit the authors website..  you have anything negetive to say about me, I don't care. I choose what to see, I choose what to believe, Go away if you want to stomp all over my dreams. I am not who you want me to be, I am not who you think I should be, You may find you are like me in some ways, Just leave it at that and Don't idolize what i say. Read more from this author

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