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Poetry- 2009

Seizing the moment

He walks from thought to thought,

Seeking resolution for the how he feels

The man is social, yet secluded in his mind

He stopped wondering if there’s a god,

and wonders why it hasn’t helped remove his pain.

A broken man, wasted youth, his experience he regrets,

wouldn’t go back to change it.

Living moment by moment, every instant is pre calculated by his mind.

Gears grinding, machine running.

The enjoyment of the moment seizes, when he’s projecting the next………………..

-Sid 2009

September 26th, 2009 by Sid | No Comments »

Music

You can learn a lot about someone by the music they listen to. So here is the game! Hit shuffle on your ipod or mp3 player or whatever you use and write down the first 25 songs. No cheating or skipping songs that are shameful. That is the fun! Comment on this post and enter your list of music.

1. Bob Dylan- Tangled up in Blue
2. Bad Religion- 1000 more fools
3. Mozart- Mass No. 15 For Vocal Soloists
4. Bad Religion- Big Bang
5. Germs- Circle One
6. Bad Religion- Drunk Sincerity
7. G’N'R- Breakdown
8. Foo Fighters- My Poor Brain
9. The Joykiller- I wanna Drink over you
10. The Clash- Police on My Back
11. Bad Religion- Into the night
12. New York Dolls- Personality Crisis
13. The Ramones- Beat on the brat
14. Jimi Hendrix- May this be Love
15. G.B.H- Hellhole
16. Dire Straits- So far away
17. Bach- Concerto for Two Violins
18. Bad religion- Suffer
19. Mozart- Symphony #40 in G minor
20. G’N'R- Back Off Bitch
21. The Grabbers- Cum Drunk
22. Ch3- Double Standard Boys
23. Ch3- I’ll take my chances
24. The Ramones- Gimme Gimme Shock Treatment
25. Bob Dylan- My Back Pages
-From my I-Touch on Shuffle all Songs-

-Sid.

September 11th, 2009 by Sid | No Comments »

This is My Life 09-03-2009

This Is My Life                         09-03-2009

I woke up today really fuzzy. Looking around I was like WTF mate, for a second I didn’t know where I was at. Then a little of the fuzziness went away, and I remembered.

So me and Rodrigo went up to Napa to install a gas line. Relatively simple, but not so easy when the sun is blazing down upon you, and your sliding around in a puddle of your own sweat HaHaHaHaHa. That shit doesn’t bother me when I am learning and doing something I enjoy.

Driving back from Napa was nice, with some kick ass music playing and the cool wind blowing in my face I felt good. It wasn’t till I got to Rodrigo’s place that the darkness started creeping in. Feeling home sick, I miss my friends and family. I am trying not to look at the differences being up here. Though missing my home does not help. Before it was easy living up here, cos’ I did not wanna go back to Southern California, but now I never wanted to leave. The actions of doing The Forces will I believe brought me up here. So I must continue to rely on The Force, especially in the emotionally difficult time. Trust in The Force, and not feed into the madness, depression, and self pity. I will not allow the dark shroud fall over me.

-Sid.

September 11th, 2009 by Sid | No Comments »

It’s been a while

 

I didn’t feel angry or depressed. I didn’t feel anything at all. I didn’t want to go to bed. And I didn’t want to stay up late. “Whenever I Breathe Out, You Breathe In”  – Modest Mouse

I’m back posting after a short break.  I actually have just been  in burn-out mode for the past month.  Between my odd work hours and trying to maintain some normalcy in my social interactions; I have been burning myself out. I keep on telling myself  “this is the week…I’m going to go to sleep early, I’m not going to go out on nights when I have work the next day” but to no avail.  I continue to go to work on two hours of sleep, get home take a quick nap and then go out again.

     Well I am now starting to feel the effects and I am feeling tired all the time now and sometimes feel like I am the living dead, barely able to function.

  I have been getting better though, and this week I only went out on my days off; I have had at least five hours of sleep each night and have slowly been taking care of things around the house…baby steps.

On an unrelated note, I will being seeing David Cross in a few weeks, I try and post something about  that after.

September 10th, 2009 by Eddie | 1 Comment »

This Is My Life 09-02-09

This is My Life              09-02-2009

I am on the greyhound going north bound. Another one of my adventures to experience, I am not sure what. Going through a lot of nothing land on the I5 I got to contemplate what I must get done these 6 months. This moment time seems forever long. After 4 hours we stop to eat. I grabbed some food, but the cow shit stench in the air paralyzed me from eating. Feeling nauseas I told myself I will eat this later. After smoking a couple of smokes I said to myself lets get the fuck outta’ here and I got back on the bus and back to my adventures.

Long bus adventures gives you plenty of opportunity to think about things you would normally be to busy to think about such as one reason I can think of I find enjoyment riding greyhound is the people. Why is it you take a bus to northern California verses a train or a plain? Is it just because it’s the cheapest such in my case? Quite possible with some people, but I think there’s more to that question. When I bought my ticket in Santa Ana the individual didn’t even ask for my I.D. I wonder how many people on the bus I was on had I.D.? Well I am rambling.

So I made it up here and was really excited to see my friend Rodrigo. On the way to his house I tiredly talked about what was going on the last couple of years, and so did he. Having all this excitement I wanted to do so many things, but it being 2 am I was tired from a long day so I just fell asleep, and that ended day 1 of my adventures.

-Sid.

September 6th, 2009 by Sid | No Comments »

Poetry .

Drifting above reality

Today I deal with the fear of making it another day.

I blindly walk through this morning fog.

Looking past reality, I see myself fade

away.

Drifting above reality.

Into a picture of circuses and clowns I franticly

run.

A gloomy nightmare in this corner of my

mind.

I find a spec of hope which carries me

through time.

To follow my shadow where ever it may

Go.

Drifting above reality.

Yet not knowing where I’ll go.

As I live in today I still

Think about the next.

What will happen tomorrow, and

What will I learn

-Sid.

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August 25th, 2009 by Sid | No Comments »

This is My Life 08-18-2009

This is My Life 08-18-2009

Today started out as an ordinary waking up to the usual noise pollution going on outside. My spirit seemed high, higher than they’ve been the last few days. Having my coffee outside gave me time to contemplate my move up north. The stuff I need to get done has materialized into a reality. Got a call from the storage place I am going to store some stuff at, to finalize the details. Later on the love of my life called me to let me know I don’t have to move cos’ her dad got me an interview set up for a job working towards becoming an electrician. I was like WOW, I couldn’t believe it.

I sit here now at the coffee shop I frequently visit to contemplate the recent news. If this can work out, I mean if I can get into this “program” and toward reaching my aim. That would mean I would not have to move up north. Right now I am trying to exist in the moment and let the results be with the force. I have now one more reason I don’t wanna move up north. Amber the love of my life, and if I don’t need to go up north that means I can stay down here and work it out with her. Not to mention all the other reasons I don’t wanna move up north. Such as the way I feel spiritually, my family, and friends. Though as I said before I will exist in the moment and let the results be with the force.

-Sid.

August 24th, 2009 by Sid | No Comments »

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